I'm Not Who I Was

Forgetting the past and straining toward the future and what is ahead

Whole Again

Okay so yesterday I totally confessed my love for John Legend music. Well the Holy Spirit opened my eyes to the spirit behind the music :

Preach Preacher!

I am too, I find my self in the same spot. In love with R&B and the John Stephens sound but my eyes were open to that spirit last night. GOD was showing me how that spirit is so deceptive and it has the form of light( john legend is inspired by Gospel Music) but denies the power there of just like Jude talks about. The spirit is ugly and it is like candy sweet but it rotts your teeth so that you can not eat the Word of GOD and properly digest it . The spirit is ugly and grimy that creeps in when you are most vulnerable. Instead of turning to God's voice, some might turn to their favorite lyric like mine "Refuge, When it is Cold Outside" . I can't allow that spirit to trick me like it has in the past. Instead of giving me life it takes life away from me.

Now this spirit can come in the form of a person. Ladies , some guys operate in this spirit. Don't get switched

But in order for me to get that insite I had to first be in HIS face. The Lord will give you discernment so that you can see things as they really are. I had to first pray to HIM and let all the other chatter of the world cease. Just pause. Pause and listen to the Holy Spirit

I got this in cite after going to church and praying all night to the Father. When you are close to HIM, He gives you insite(like don't marry him, don't date him, don't even talk to him) God knows our weaknesses and our strong points. When we are weak , HE is then strong. We can't continue to feed our sicknesses with candy and sweets. We must cleanse our wounds with the word.

I ask the Lord for help as I continue to brush my spiritual teeth so that I can eat the Word the way He called us to !

gave that comment to this site http://www.ourrisingsound.com/2009/03/26/john-legend-sings-about-cheating-christians/

Been A Long Time

My first time blogging on Felicia Daily Journal for the new year. I have much catching up to do. One thing I must bring up to date is my love for vintage John Legend music. I don't know what it is but it takes me somewhere else. I shouldn't let something "take me away" no pun intended but when I hear "Coming Home" or "Refuge(When It's Cold Outside) I feel that "everything is everything" ( okay that pun was intended.)

Why do we become so lazy as a culture. I can tell of my laziness. I should definitenly out more into my relationship with the Father. At times I find myself not doing as much as I should. I said it a while ago how long will we keep singing the song "I'm Not Perfect"? How long will continue to say I need to get better at something when we were struggluing with the same thing for 5 years. When will we say I don't need to be getting better but I need to be better. If you know better you should do better. Why is it so hard for us to fight our flesh and get lax everything is going okay. We never need to loose that connection with God. HE needs to always be on my mind more than anything. Then we need to use that and reach out to those who are hurting and not going from one place to the other and never reaching out. We must be in the world but certaintly not of it. The world doesn't worship but we do. The world talks about people but we don't. The world does things on impulse and works without faith and faiths without works. We should never loose our sanctity. We should never be different and not like others.

Today in Ad we took an essay. Or I should say they wrote an essay ! I went in the back and listened to music on Pandora the only site our school lets us listen to music. I was back there with Tyler and Travis the two most laid back people in the world. Ms. Trybel was in there doing a test. She is the new Beta Club sponsor. She seems super cool unlike some teachers.

The Writing Assessment in second block. Yes, I said as I missed Mr. Nye's class again. The prompt was"In wake of the school shootings, should teachers be able to have guns in the classroom?" I did not support the reasoning and I began with a story of a teacher who's gun got stolen by a student and the student then shot everything. It sounded better then that though. I do wish that they would give us our test back after we complete them so we would actually learn something. Anyway, my supporting points were as follows, students could steal the firearms, giving teachers the right to kill, and costs. The cost were things like the training that had to go into the teachers being able to use a firearm, potential law suits if an innocent student were to ever get hurt, and background checks on teachers. Now that I think about it, some teachers need background checks now even with out the fire arms.

The rest of the day was cool saving Mr. Harpole's class. I don't know what it is but I don't really learn anything in the class and especially today.

Mrs. Moeller had the coolest lab ever. We ate candy at the end and we took a quiz about those science guys.

After school I got online and was just checking my email and I found the scholarship just right for me. http://www.artandwriting.org/pdfs/GuideSub_Novel.pdf

Kids send in their art and writing and they could win scholarships! I have so much already man I am so going to do this!!